want to share my poem

here is my poem about my baby girl

My baby

Finding out I could not have children was so devastating to me,

Thats all I ever wanted,a mom is what I wished to be.

There were so many days I wouldn't get out of bed,

For I couldn't get the sadness to ever leave my head.

Then the day I saw the add "puppy's for sale"

I got this feeling inside me and when we met, oh how you wagged your tail.

I knew right away it was love at first sight,

For when I held you in my arms, everything felt just right.

Those little blue eyes looking at me,

I brought you home and my heart was filled with glee.

Never had I known just how attached you could get,

For you have become my daughter, surely not my pet.

her chip in is http://dakota2010.chipin.com/my-dog-dakotas-knee-surgery

and also all proceeds from my jewelry shop is going towards her surgery.. 

http://www.etsy.com/shop/allinthefamilyart

venting

http://dakota2010.chipin.com/my-dog-dakotas-knee-surgery

well lets see, it has been quite a while since my last post! Not many friends on here but using it as a place to write my thoughts is good. well 2 more weeks till Dakotas surgery and 8 weeks till our wedding! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh   well there is something special i want to share! On June 30th i started a chip in site. (Pin Up for Pit Bulls recommended me to do so) I had attitude and was like "yeah like someone is gonna help us!!! Well..... since June 30th we have gotten 117 donations! Just typing that makes my throat all heavy and my eyes want to water. 177 ppl!! (and I only know 2) I have mixed feelings of that piece. anyways, we have gotten 91% of the money we need! http://dakota2010.chipin.com/my-dog-dakotas-knee-surgery
Kota even Got nominated for "pay it forward" by a great group called Concrete angels, where ppl were asked to chip in $1 out of their life, and pay it forward. It was amazing, and I also pay it forward to others in need.
 ALSO the wonderful group "Pin up For pit bulls" http://www.pinupsforpitbulls.com/  sent us a grant application, which I had filled out probably a dozen other funding applications and were immediately denied BUT Kota GOT IT!!! A $500 Grant, so now all we need is $213 by her surgery date which is Aug 24th.

My baby had her good days and bad days. Good days she thinks she's ok to run again and will try to do so and it leads into a "bad night" Im still massaging her leg, icing, it and giving her lots of TLC!! She is my world and seeing her like this is horrible but from what Ive been told "I aint seen nothin yet" I cant even imagine what the next 6 months will be. No toe touching for a week, then no jumping, running, playing!! Goshh..l if you knew my dog.. she is soooooo hyper.. Keeping her from running and jumping for months and months... UGHHH

someone also very generously  donated a back end harness to us 9which was soo thoughtful!!)  but we have tried it over and over and get get it right and we end up with a dog shaking bad and scared! we are going to try a sling..   This has taken a toll, and then trying to still get married on 10-10-10 like we have planned for soo long is , uhh well driving me insane!!   well enough writing for now. Needed to vent. Not sure any one reads my blog, well seeming I only have like 4 followers.. yeah prob not but it feels good to let it out.. even if its in random cyber world!